Wild and Free and Plaid


I'm one of those obnoxious people who celebrate their birthdays for the entire month. This shirt is a result of that. Do I want to spend $250 at Dolls Kill? Hell yeah, I do. So I did. Because it's April and all of April is my birthday. I had never shopped at Dolls Kill before and it's a retailer I've been wanting to try for awhile. I can say that I am super pleased with the weirdness of their selection and the insane quickness of their shipping. I ordered on a Friday and had my package by Monday afternoon. What else have I indulged in for my birthday, you ask? Well, let me tell you!

-I bought a mannequin from Craig's List (for art, I promise)
-I bought a disgusting, stained, grody late 1800's Edwardian lace dress to put on said mannequin
-I rented studio space for the first week in May to make the art mentioned above
-I spent way too much money at Sephora during their VIB 15% off sale
-I spent way too much money at Dolls Kill
-I spent way too much money at Asos
-I ate way too much - ice cream, brunch, cookies, more ice cream. And yeah, ice cream one more time.
-I got fancy purple hair
-I got a new tattoo
-I went and photographed a quaint little graveyard 30 minutes from my house
-I read my full year tarot spread and saw a lot of cups and a lot of swords - which balance each other nicely.

The birthday indulgences I've allowed and the things I have done have all felt very me. I hope to take that shameless me-ness into the coming year.

Shop this Look:

Wild and Free graphic tee, Dolls Kill (exact)

Black drape pocket cardigan, Stitch Fix (similar)

Black and white plaid pants, Asos (exact)

Black velvet floral creepers, TUK (similar)

Bravery in this Body


"You're so brave for posting these photos."

No. I am not brave for posting these photos. I am existing. I am taking up space. I am uncovering a body that possesses features society says are better left concealed. There is nothing brave about having a body. We all have one. The fact that people will think it's brave for me to show mine says less about me and more about the world in which we live.

My size 10 body. My 34DDD breasts. My tummy rolls. My broad shoulders. My arm fat. My cellulite. My stretch marks. Here they are. They are part of what makes me me. They are as essential to who I am in this moment as my tattoos and purple hair. They tell the story of daily morning coffees with extra cream, lazy nights in with my husband eating pizza and watching TV, an ongoing battle with PCOS, and a preference for roller blading over hitting the gym. They are features that are almost a carbon copy of my nana, who passed away but somehow lives on in the genetics staring back at me in the mirror each morning. They are the things I was told I should hate - and I did. I started that inner dialogue as a smaller, thinner, younger me and cultivated it into a mental disorder known as BDD. And as the number on the scale grew and girth of my thighs no longer fit into the same size pants as they did in high school, I convinced myself I was not worthy of love in this current body - not from others, not from myself.

So no, I am not brave for posting these photos. I am brave for trying to love myself despite a world and an inner voice that tells me every single minute of everything single hour of every single damn fucking day that I shouldn't.

And in case you couldn't tell, I'm over covering myself up and thanks to Calvin Klein's ID bralette, these big boobs can finally go braless.

Shop This Revealing, Liberating Look

White mesh bralette, Calvin Klein (exact)

Black loose-ftting tank, Free People (exact)

Contrast stripe leggings, asos (similar)

Stitch Fix Unboxing and Try On - April 2017

Queue immature barfing sounds. This was bad.

The Unboxing:



The Details:

Pixley Banu Mesh Neckline Knit Top, Size L

Le Lis Teylyn Textured Knit Dress, Size L

Renee C Lillie Knit Top, Size L

Edyson Maisha Ponte and Faux Leather Jacket, Size L

Pizley Alison T-Shirt Swing Dress in Navy, Size L

The Verdict: 

I'm really disappointed. Those dresses were so bleghhhhh. They looked like something the preppy girls were wearing back when I was in high school. And there's nothing wrong with that - if you like that style and you're in high school...in the 2000's.  Too sweet, too cutesy, too young, not me in the slightest. The worst part? I got dresses because I asked for an edgy dress to wear out to dinner with my husband for my birthday. My stylist made two choices - that's two attempts at what I asked for and both dresses were super casual, super not my style, and super booooring.

I've been waffling on Stitch Fix for awhile. I thought I was good to go - the last box was a 5/5 keep. But this is my 10th fix and it was so off-style. I'm all for stepping out of my comfort zone - I'm pretty adventurous when it comes to fashion but this wasn't adventurous or boundary breaking. It was just nothing. I feel like after 10 boxes with this company, they should be getting it right or close to right every time with the exception of "try this and break out of your comfort zone" pieces. I've even been using the same stylist for the past handful of boxes.

I think it's time to take a break from Stitch Fix, at least for me. I think it's a wonderful service. They have some of the best customer service I've ever come across. If you're into a more vintage, boho, classic, or corporate style, you will love it. But, after 10 boxes, I think they're running out of edgy pieces to send me. I'm getting a lot of the same silhouettes, patterns, and colors (I get it, yes, black = edgy to most of the world but it's more than that) over and over.

My message to Stitch Fix is this: edgy is in. Flannels, graphics, hardware, mesh, asymmetry, strappy necklines, cutouts, open backs, distressing, tie-dye, acid wash, fringe - this stuff is on-trend and you have customers who want it. It's not just me. I see a ton of people asking for this same stuff in the Stitch Fix Facebook groups. People who are getting these classic, preppy styles who are continuously asking for "edgier please" and inevitably quitting your service when you aren't able to deliver. These sweet silhouettes are not for everyone. You're alienating a section of your audience. Find buyers that understand edgier trends. Find stylists that understand edgier styles. I want to be paired with someone who still cries over My Chemical Romance's break-up and wore Tripp NYC pants in the 9th grade. Where are those stylists? If the answer is "nowhere" - find them. Or just hire me!

If you're wanting to try Stitch Fix (I know I make it sound so appealing, but I do think this service can work for some people depending on your needs) and this blog post helped your make that decision, I'd be grateful if you signed up using my referral link. I'll get a credit towards a future box!

Athleisure is Fashion for Corpses


I'll be the first one to admit that I used to scoff at this whole athleisure thing. After all, I have the athletic ability of a baby learning how to walk while throwing a tantrum because it's hungry. But then I picked up a few pieces - a pair of Nike's here, a vintage 90's Polo Ralph Lauren bag there. And then before I knew it, I had a whole outfit. And then my wardrobe became 90's athleisure with a side of grunge I-don't-give-a-fuck-ism. They work well together. It all started when I realized that athlesiure is literally just sporty fashion for the lazy. So, you mean, I get to wear contrast striping, leggings, sneakers, and a pony tail without the expectation of sports-ing? And that's on trend? Hell yeah, don't mind if I do.

I think athleisure is the fashion trendy reanimated corpses would choose. I don't have any proof, mind you. But it seems appropriately comfortable for mindless shambling.

Shop this Look

-Black and white striped cutout top, All Saints (similar)

-Black leggings, Kohls (exact)

-Buffalo plaid fleece jacket, Kohls (similar)

-Nike Red Tag sneakers, Nike.com (similar)

-Vintage Polo Ralph Lauren purse, ThredUp* (similar)

*If you like shopping second-hand, you should give ThredUp a try. It's like thrift store shopping only online and organized!

Make Art Not War



Well hi there! It's been awhile!

Life is happening. I've gotten a great job here in my my new city. I'm an e-commerce specialist for a large non-profit and mainly work in the fashion department. I love that I get to be creative every single day. Going from unemployed to a full time employee has been quite an adjustment but every week seems a little easier and I'm slowly finding a way to do all the things I love to do on my days off - updating this blog included!

Otherwise I've been getting tattoos (you can see my latest in the last image), refreshing my purple hair, filming Stitch Fix unboxings, and just recently, roller blading again for the first time in many, many years (and loving it!).

Fashion-wise, things have gotten a little dicey. I've had some really bad weeks where I feel my body dysphormic disorder rearing its ugly head. It's been challenging to get dressed in the morning and even more so to take photographs of what I'm wearing while I'm feeling so down on myself. And though this outfit is nothing special, I was feeling very 90s, the weather was perfect, and I figured the new hair and new tattoo would help me get through a photo session.

Shop this Look

Shimmery hoodie, H&M (exact)

Make Art Not War t-shirt, Obey (exact)

Black leggings, Kohl's (exact)

Brown work boots, Dr. Martens (similar)

90s Vintage Polo Ralph Lauren purse, ThredUp (similar)

For this badass hair you'll have to come to Seattle and see Alise at Vain!

For a badass tattoo like my new bird skull, you'll have to come to Seattle and see Christen at Tyger Wolf Tattoo! 



StitchFix Unboxing and Try-On March 2017

So I actually had two Stitch Fix boxes in February but starting at a new job has been quite a transition and I'm having a hard time managing this blog and working full-time. I think eventually I will find my rhythm and be able to do both without issue. If you're curious to see the last fix, I did film a video and post it on my YouTube channel. I'd recommend following me over there because I do always unbox my Fixes on camera, even if the video doesn't make it over here!

Anyway, the last fix was terrible. There were quality issues throughout and it did not fit the specifications of what I asked for. That being said, Stitch Fix customer service continues to be top notch. They credited my style fee for this box and agreed that their quality control needs some attention to detail.

So is this box any better?

The Unboxing:



The Info:

NYTT Karrah Burnout Knit Tee in Black, Large - $48 - Sent Back

Nine Britton Sharlie Cross Back Knit Top in Olive, Large - $38 - Sent Back

Big Star Alexandes Crop Distressed Straight Leg Jean, 10 - $88 - Sent Back

Papermoon Jimie Cross Front Knit Top in Black, Large - $44 - Sent Back

Colette Vianna French Terry Knit Top in Black, Large - $38 - Sent Back

The Verdict:

Wow. Two boxes in a row that were huge misses. I'm really on the fence about trying Stitch Fix again. Honestly, I can overlook quality issues when customer service handles them so well. What I can't overlook is fit issues. One of the reasons I started using Stitch Fix was because I wanted to feel good about myself. I wanted to try things on in the comfort of my home and avoid the fitting room melt downs (especially with things like pants which are very difficult for me to buy in store). Before this fix, the clothes they sent felt suited to woman's body. What I mean by that is that the pieces in this fix felt like they were sized for Juniors. Junior clothing does not fit me. It is too small. Way too small. These larges would probably be true larges on a teenager's body, but not on mine.

Having struggled with body dysmoprhia for most of my life, it's taken me a long time to understand that just because clothes don't fit does not mean there's something wrong with my body. And I've gotten to a place where I understand this to be true most of the time. But when four out of four tops cling and fit wrong - it starts to bring all that baggage back up for me. It reminds me of being in the Junior's section fighting to fit my developing, curvy body in cute too-small clothes. It reminds me of being in fitting rooms as a teenager and having panic attacks because things didn't fit me the way they fit my peers.

So I have to give this some thought. I have really enjoyed Stitch Fix and when they get it right, it's fantastic. But when they get it this wrong, it's detrimental to my mental health. I'm hoping this is just a one-off and is just a matter of the brands they picked for me this time run on the small side. Any thoughts? Would you give them another go knowing things have worked out well in the past?

Wanna try it?

I swear it hasn't always been this bad. I have gotten plenty of great pieces from Stitch Fix. If you wanna try it out and see what they can do for your wardrobe, I'd be SO grateful if you used my referral link to sign up. I'd get a small credit towards my next box - maybe it'll help convince me to try it again.

Stitch Fix Unboxing and Try On February 2017

The Unboxing:
I let Madeleine, who's been my stylist for the last four boxes, run free with this fix. I asked for her to surprise me in my note and she did not disappoint! 

Item Info:

Loveappella Oliver Faux Leather Trim Striped Top, Large $58 

At this price point, I couldn't justify keeping this shirt. It's too basic for almost sixty dollars. It was also a bit tight in the arms. Status: Sent Back

21 Main Emilia Drawstring Jogger Pant, Large $68

After I wore these around for a little while, I realized that the zippers on the bottom faced inwards instead of outwards. That seems super weird to me. They even clicked occasionally when I walked. I love the color and style. I would have sized down to a medium if I had decided to keep these. Since I wasn't in love and the price was steep, I didn't keep them. Status: Sent Back

Loveappella Willie Mesh Detail Knit Hoodie, Large $54.00


I'm going to live in this hoodie. Status: Kept

Liverpool Reagan Printed Skinny Pant, 10P $88


I love Liverpool pants and they fit like a dream. However, the last pair I got from Stitch Fix in the same size and style, did shrink just a tad. And since these are petite, they went from being ankle skinnies to high-waters (did anyone else's grandmother ever use that phrase?). I asked Stitch Fix to exchange in a non-petite size but they weren't available. Status: Sent Back 

Stitches & Stripes Brendah Mesh Detail Pullover, Large $68.00


I was honestly uncertain when I first pulled this out. I worried that it would be too short since it's not the tunic length I usually prefer. I tried it on with a couple different bottoms and found it looks fabulous with a shorts/tights combo and with skirts. And it's just so damn weird and cool. My husband said it looks like what people in the 80's thought futuristic fashion would look like. That's 100% perfect and everything I've ever wanted my fashion to be. As you can see, I don't mind a hefty price tag if something is unique and high quality. Status: Kept


The Verdict:

I'm so pleased with the items Madeleine pulled for me without any guidance whatsoever. I got two great tops - one that's super comfy and one that's really fashionable and cool. The items that didn't work were mostly fit issues with the exception of the joggers that had a really weird zipper detail I didn't care for. At first, I really thought this fix was 5/5 but after wearing things around for a bit and trying things on with different pieces from my wardrobe, I was able to rule some items out. Since the price tags are high, I like to be 100% sure I'm in love with something if I decide to purchase it. I like Stitch Fix for that reason. There's plenty of time to try the clothes on in the comfort of your own home (a big plus for someone with fitting room anxiety like me!) and you have your entire wardrobe at your disposal to see what fits and what doesn't. This was my sixth fix and I'm already excited for my seventh!

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