Wild and Free and Plaid

Sunday, April 23, 2017 Unknown 1 Comments

I'm one of those obnoxious people who celebrate their birthdays for the entire month. This shirt is a result of that. Do I want to spend $250 at Dolls Kill? Hell yeah, I do. So I did. Because it's April and all of April is my birthday. I had never shopped at Dolls Kill before and it's a retailer I've been wanting to try for awhile. I can say that I am super pleased with the weirdness of their selection and the insane quickness of their shipping. I ordered on a Friday and had my package by Monday afternoon. What else have I indulged in for my birthday, you ask? Well, let me tell you!

-I bought a mannequin from Craig's List (for art, I promise)
-I bought a disgusting, stained, grody late 1800's Edwardian lace dress to put on said mannequin
-I rented studio space for the first week in May to make the art mentioned above
-I spent way too much money at Sephora during their VIB 15% off sale
-I spent way too much money at Dolls Kill
-I spent way too much money at Asos
-I ate way too much - ice cream, brunch, cookies, more ice cream. And yeah, ice cream one more time.
-I got fancy purple hair
-I got a new tattoo
-I went and photographed a quaint little graveyard 30 minutes from my house
-I read my full year tarot spread and saw a lot of cups and a lot of swords - which balance each other nicely.

The birthday indulgences I've allowed and the things I have done have all felt very me. I hope to take that shameless me-ness into the coming year.

Shop this Look:

Wild and Free graphic tee, Dolls Kill (exact)

Black drape pocket cardigan, Stitch Fix (similar)

Black and white plaid pants, Asos (exact)

Black velvet floral creepers, TUK (similar)


Bravery in this Body

Wednesday, April 19, 2017 Unknown 0 Comments

"You're so brave for posting these photos."

No. I am not brave for posting these photos. I am existing. I am taking up space. I am uncovering a body that possesses features society says are better left concealed. There is nothing brave about having a body. We all have one. The fact that people will think it's brave for me to show mine says less about me and more about the world in which we live.

My size 10 body. My 34DDD breasts. My tummy rolls. My broad shoulders. My arm fat. My cellulite. My stretch marks. Here they are. They are part of what makes me me. They are as essential to who I am in this moment as my tattoos and purple hair. They tell the story of daily morning coffees with extra cream, lazy nights in with my husband eating pizza and watching TV, an ongoing battle with PCOS, and a preference for roller blading over hitting the gym. They are features that are almost a carbon copy of my nana, who passed away but somehow lives on in the genetics staring back at me in the mirror each morning. They are the things I was told I should hate - and I did. I started that inner dialogue as a smaller, thinner, younger me and cultivated it into a mental disorder known as BDD. And as the number on the scale grew and girth of my thighs no longer fit into the same size pants as they did in high school, I convinced myself I was not worthy of love in this current body - not from others, not from myself.

So no, I am not brave for posting these photos. I am brave for trying to love myself despite a world and an inner voice that tells me every single minute of everything single hour of every single damn fucking day that I shouldn't.

And in case you couldn't tell, I'm over covering myself up and thanks to Calvin Klein's ID bralette, these big boobs can finally go braless.

Shop This Revealing, Liberating Look

White mesh bralette, Calvin Klein (exact)

Black loose-ftting tank, Free People (exact)

Contrast stripe leggings, asos (similar)


Stitch Fix Unboxing and Try On - April 2017

Monday, April 17, 2017 Unknown 0 Comments

Queue immature barfing sounds. This was bad.

The Unboxing:

The Details:

Pixley Banu Mesh Neckline Knit Top, Size L

Le Lis Teylyn Textured Knit Dress, Size L

Renee C Lillie Knit Top, Size L

Edyson Maisha Ponte and Faux Leather Jacket, Size L

Pizley Alison T-Shirt Swing Dress in Navy, Size L

The Verdict: 

I'm really disappointed. Those dresses were so bleghhhhh. They looked like something the preppy girls were wearing back when I was in high school. And there's nothing wrong with that - if you like that style and you're in high school...in the 2000's.  Too sweet, too cutesy, too young, not me in the slightest. The worst part? I got dresses because I asked for an edgy dress to wear out to dinner with my husband for my birthday. My stylist made two choices - that's two attempts at what I asked for and both dresses were super casual, super not my style, and super booooring.

I've been waffling on Stitch Fix for awhile. I thought I was good to go - the last box was a 5/5 keep. But this is my 10th fix and it was so off-style. I'm all for stepping out of my comfort zone - I'm pretty adventurous when it comes to fashion but this wasn't adventurous or boundary breaking. It was just nothing. I feel like after 10 boxes with this company, they should be getting it right or close to right every time with the exception of "try this and break out of your comfort zone" pieces. I've even been using the same stylist for the past handful of boxes.

I think it's time to take a break from Stitch Fix, at least for me. I think it's a wonderful service. They have some of the best customer service I've ever come across. If you're into a more vintage, boho, classic, or corporate style, you will love it. But, after 10 boxes, I think they're running out of edgy pieces to send me. I'm getting a lot of the same silhouettes, patterns, and colors (I get it, yes, black = edgy to most of the world but it's more than that) over and over.

My message to Stitch Fix is this: edgy is in. Flannels, graphics, hardware, mesh, asymmetry, strappy necklines, cutouts, open backs, distressing, tie-dye, acid wash, fringe - this stuff is on-trend and you have customers who want it. It's not just me. I see a ton of people asking for this same stuff in the Stitch Fix Facebook groups. People who are getting these classic, preppy styles who are continuously asking for "edgier please" and inevitably quitting your service when you aren't able to deliver. These sweet silhouettes are not for everyone. You're alienating a section of your audience. Find buyers that understand edgier trends. Find stylists that understand edgier styles. I want to be paired with someone who still cries over My Chemical Romance's break-up and wore Tripp NYC pants in the 9th grade. Where are those stylists? If the answer is "nowhere" - find them. Or just hire me!

If you're wanting to try Stitch Fix (I know I make it sound so appealing, but I do think this service can work for some people depending on your needs) and this blog post helped your make that decision, I'd be grateful if you signed up using my referral link. I'll get a credit towards a future box!


Athleisure is Fashion for Corpses

Wednesday, April 12, 2017 Sam 2 Comments

I'll be the first one to admit that I used to scoff at this whole athleisure thing. After all, I have the athletic ability of a baby learning how to walk while throwing a tantrum because it's hungry. But then I picked up a few pieces - a pair of Nike's here, a vintage 90's Polo Ralph Lauren bag there. And then before I knew it, I had a whole outfit. And then my wardrobe became 90's athleisure with a side of grunge I-don't-give-a-fuck-ism. They work well together. It all started when I realized that athlesiure is literally just sporty fashion for the lazy. So, you mean, I get to wear contrast striping, leggings, sneakers, and a pony tail without the expectation of sports-ing? And that's on trend? Hell yeah, don't mind if I do.

I think athleisure is the fashion trendy reanimated corpses would choose. I don't have any proof, mind you. But it seems appropriately comfortable for mindless shambling.

Shop this Look

-Black and white striped cutout top, All Saints (similar)

-Black leggings, Kohls (exact)

-Buffalo plaid fleece jacket, Kohls (similar)

-Nike Red Tag sneakers, Nike.com (similar)

-Vintage Polo Ralph Lauren purse, ThredUp* (similar)

*If you like shopping second-hand, you should give ThredUp a try. It's like thrift store shopping only online and organized!


Make Art Not War

Tuesday, April 04, 2017 Sam 0 Comments

Well hi there! It's been awhile!

Life is happening. I've gotten a great job here in my my new city. I'm an e-commerce specialist for a large non-profit and mainly work in the fashion department. I love that I get to be creative every single day. Going from unemployed to a full time employee has been quite an adjustment but every week seems a little easier and I'm slowly finding a way to do all the things I love to do on my days off - updating this blog included!

Otherwise I've been getting tattoos (you can see my latest in the last image), refreshing my purple hair, filming Stitch Fix unboxings, and just recently, roller blading again for the first time in many, many years (and loving it!).

Fashion-wise, things have gotten a little dicey. I've had some really bad weeks where I feel my body dysphormic disorder rearing its ugly head. It's been challenging to get dressed in the morning and even more so to take photographs of what I'm wearing while I'm feeling so down on myself. And though this outfit is nothing special, I was feeling very 90s, the weather was perfect, and I figured the new hair and new tattoo would help me get through a photo session.

Shop this Look

Shimmery hoodie, H&M (exact)

Make Art Not War t-shirt, Obey (exact)

Black leggings, Kohl's (exact)

Brown work boots, Dr. Martens (similar)

90s Vintage Polo Ralph Lauren purse, ThredUp (similar)

For this badass hair you'll have to come to Seattle and see Alise at Vain!

For a badass tattoo like my new bird skull, you'll have to come to Seattle and see Christen at Tyger Wolf Tattoo!